Its my birthday!!!

I'm partying! Having fun with my friends! Eating.....lol I always eat! But i don't think i'm chunky... just....chunky lol

Facebook post of Mine

Okay. I could say that I'm completely over you, But that would be a lie. I could say that I love you. But again, more lies and no truth.

I could say that I hate you and always will. And thats yet another lie. But I could say I want you back.... and thats just halfway false. I do want you back, but only the real you. Not the "you" you are trying to be. The one I fell in love with.

 But here's a truth. I'm unsure about everything. 

I've decided.

Caleb does not like me. I will not like him. He thinks he's a Jack ass and I'll let him think that. I don't think he is one. But if i keep talking to him I'm gonna start liking him. So i'll stop that right now. I'll only txt him if he txts me first

This Isn't good...

Well apparently at our soccer banquet which was Wednesday the 30th, Cole was staring at me the whole time. I didn't think so but everyone around me thought so. I mean I'd catch him looking at me a couple times but not much. And the even worse thing is I still kinda... Love is a strong word but its like a train wreck you can't look away from, you just can't stop doing it, Him. But I've liked his older brother Taylor for a while which he has a Girlfriend who also happens to be one of my best friends and seems to hate me anyway so i should be over him soon, And Cole's friend that's supposed to be like a brother to him... so that's kinda awkward :/

I need you now

I can't believe I'd actually fall for him again. He hurt me so much and for some odd reason i wanna say I love him, But i know i don't. So.. we had Music together. His choir and mine have a girls piece and a guys piece and while he was singing I caught him looking straight at me and he must have saw me doing it too because we did that like 3 times. And I know it means nothing right? Someone somewhere agree with me please.... ;( 
Oh and I have a guy friend that I've know but haven't liked except once in like 5th grade, but anyway he likes me know and i don't like him like that. But I like his friend Jayden....

Again with the faces

He's doing it again. It makes me sad cause I know it must be in my head. I think I'll always secretly love Cole, but I'll find someone better and love them more... I think I like Levi... He's cute. 3 houses down too... And his sister is a good friend of mine

Well then..... 11/15/2011

                                     Lately me and my ex bf, of less than a year might I add, have had a couple of eye glances or moments so to say in the halls of our school,But I don't think it means anything..... Should I, I mean really. He's 2 and some years younger than I, He practically cheated on me more than once, he told me he cheated on me and then told me it was a test ( on a chick i never met and not even sure existed btw), and he said he loved me and then after we broke up for the 3rd time  ( I broke up with him twice cause i couldn't take it, and then he broke off the final one)  he goes around school saying I'm fat and such. SO.... Really It's nothing right? I really hope not cause if it is something I might fall for him again and I shouldn't, but idk why I did in the first place. Anyway if this continues I'm pretty sure i"ll figure it out...