I need you now

I can't believe I'd actually fall for him again. He hurt me so much and for some odd reason i wanna say I love him, But i know i don't. So.. we had Music together. His choir and mine have a girls piece and a guys piece and while he was singing I caught him looking straight at me and he must have saw me doing it too because we did that like 3 times. And I know it means nothing right? Someone somewhere agree with me please.... ;( 
Oh and I have a guy friend that I've know but haven't liked except once in like 5th grade, but anyway he likes me know and i don't like him like that. But I like his friend Jayden....

Again with the faces

He's doing it again. It makes me sad cause I know it must be in my head. I think I'll always secretly love Cole, but I'll find someone better and love them more... I think I like Levi... He's cute. 3 houses down too... And his sister is a good friend of mine

Well then..... 11/15/2011

                                     Lately me and my ex bf, of less than a year might I add, have had a couple of eye glances or moments so to say in the halls of our school,But I don't think it means anything..... Should I, I mean really. He's 2 and some years younger than I, He practically cheated on me more than once, he told me he cheated on me and then told me it was a test ( on a chick i never met and not even sure existed btw), and he said he loved me and then after we broke up for the 3rd time  ( I broke up with him twice cause i couldn't take it, and then he broke off the final one)  he goes around school saying I'm fat and such. SO.... Really It's nothing right? I really hope not cause if it is something I might fall for him again and I shouldn't, but idk why I did in the first place. Anyway if this continues I'm pretty sure i"ll figure it out...